Update...

Where to begin?

I have been absent for a while from these forums for no other reason then I simply havn't taken the time to write. I'm really not sure where my life is at this moment. I get so caught up in work that I really just don't want to take time for myself. I guess it kinda leaves my personal life in shambles, but I really don't have that much of a personal life to manage so I suppose it isn't too bad. The Navy takes up alot of my time, but the problem is, much of it is just me trying to be an over achiever, and I really don't get a lot in return. I want to fit in, and be one of the guys, but at the end of the day I am not. I suppose I never will be. I kinda feel like a second class citizen. People love my work and service, yet when it comes time for me to get some sort of reward for it they just don't want me to have it. Sad really.

On relationships...

I have decided that there is really no need to seek them out. Every relationship I have sought after has been some big failure, or has never happened. The two times in my life when I had something promising come along it was nothing I had sought, and both times I screwed it up. So I have decided that there really is no need to seek out something that I can and have done without for quite some time. I should focus more on my life as it is, and doing the things that I need to do for myself.

On politics...

I am not satisfied with any of the Presidential candidates this year. The democrats scare me and the republicans annoy me. I will have to decide on someone, but at this point I honestly can't see who it will be. They all have so many flaws in my eyes. When will we have a candidate worthy of the office that they seek?